today is my parent's wedding anniversary. they have been married for 26 years.
in 26 years they have raised 3 children. they sent all 3 children to college.
my mom waited 12 years for an engagement ring.

they met when they were 16.
they have been together for 38 yrs in total.
they built 2 houses from scratch.
they survived 5 years of college.
they are helping their elderly parents age gracefully.
they welcomed their eldest (me) back to their home with open arms.
they both work full time and receive awards and recognition each yr.
they are the greatest example of love conquering all...

i do not believe in love today.

they want me to celebrate their acheivements by being the 3rd wheel.

I do not feel much like celebrating.

As of 4pm last night, Hkyplayer & I called it quits.
I drove 10 hours in a car to end our relationship.
We spent 1 last night together (he was so confused by my tossing & turning.)
We made it 5 years.
We lasted through 4 years of college.
We celebrated birthdays and holidays.
We cried together, we fought together, we smiled together and challenged each other.
He became patient, I became confident.
We dreamed of little babies with green eyes and dirty blonde curly hair.
We planned out our wedding.
We lived in France together for 3 months.
We had plans. We had goals.
We had promises.

I forget what being alone is like.
I forget the girl who was Me before he waltzed up to me one Saturday night
...late August, 2004.
I forget what her goals are.
Her dreams.

I am going to go find them.
Come along for the ride.

This is no longer a love story.

It is a life story.

http://vimeo.com/5958236


gorgeous.
peaceful.
lovely.
& did not break the bank....

my dream.

***UPDATE! The Online Shopping Gods are now in my Good Books.***

I called the Customer Service Line to get more info on the price change. Turns out, the boots were originally 165$ and People Mag messed it up! So the company dropped the price down to $110. BUT! If you call-- they drop the price down to $90.00 and provide free shipping and handling. And ship in 5 days.

now that is quality service. :)
in case anyone else would like to make Over.The.Knee.Boots. work this wknd...
http://www.restrictedshoes.com/retail/ProductDetail.asp?div=CURRENT&dpt=&ctg=&PROD_CD=R%2DVAMP#

Oh. and P.S. Anna Sui's Gossip Girl Line @ Tar'Jee is completely Sold Out.
Screw You Online Shopping Gods.

I am raging out on the shopping Gods today let me tell you.

I was skimming through People's Style Magazine- the one with Vanessa Hutchings {{or however you spell her last name}} & came across these great Over The Knee Boots (O.T.K.). After watching the VMAs and some of NYC fashion week runways- I am convinved that they are a hit.

Boots are great. Comfy, classy, can last a couple seasons, keep you warm, sexy...and then...theres this factor. I hate my knees. I think I always have. They are my nemisis. I hate them more than any other body part. When they are not exposed I feel like I look 10 lbs lighter. So, basically, the Fashion Gods granted me a miracle and over the knee boots are now in fashion. How QUICKLY the tides changed...

Anyway, the People mag featured a pair of OTK boots in their issue, they are suede, they have a cute perfect height heel, and they were cheap-- 65$. In busy chaotic life, I kept leaving the People mag at home and forgetting the website, so days flew by without me placing my order. {{I know, I know, STUPID GIRL. I even figured they would be sold out by now}} On Saturday I checked on by Blackberry to make sure they were in- and there they were, all sparkly and shiny and I was so fricking giddy. But ordering online via the Berry is difficult. I would probably end up with 10 pairs of purple boots. No thank you. So I waited til Monday.

That was..until yesterday. I checked for my beloved boots and the price said $110. {{The name of the boots is "Vamp" so I knew I was not mistaking}} This morning I ripped the page out of the People mag, DUH should of done that sooner...to confirm. YUP. They raised the price from $65.00 to $110.00 in like a day. {{WHY. why. why}} I now should take a stance for online shoppers across the U.S.A. and call and complain and send emails and stomp my cold non-OTK boot foot. But I mean seriously. I am sick of doing that kind of thing. I am a working girl. I like to buy things. And have them shipped to my door. Like Christmas morning. WITHOUT being suckered into spending more $$$ than necessary.

Honestly.

Okay. well. there are so many more important, interesting, fun things going on in my life to blog about. I swear I am not materialistic. Well maybe a tad......Speaking of...does anyone know of an OTK boot-maker- that is rather cheap? I tried ALDO and Steve Madden and I think their fall boots are iffy. Happy Tuesday. :)

Oh and here are the damn boots.

i wonder what my body would look like if i did not add a pound of salt to all my meals? cant help it.. addicted.

i love this new site..perfect for the hockey player arm candy. wool coats that are cute.
scarves, gloves etc. i have learned the hardwork you need to bundle AND look good..

BREAKING NEWS!!:

Anna Sui is launcing a GOSSIP GIRLS Inspired Line @ Target This Weekend!!

Who ever thought that launching a line on a Sunday would bring in good press is a bit PR-UN-saavy..especially for us Internet Shopping folks! Some of us aren't online on Sundays. The line incorporates Blair, Serena & Vanessa clothing based on their own personal style. SHOCK of the Century-- I am currently attracted to Vanessa's clothing. I am going to lose sleep over why I am not head of heels <3<3 for Blair's ribbons, bows & ruffles.

But regardless...here is a little glimpse of some of her fall-dresses.

{{Thank God tights are still in this Fall & Winter. They are like my long lost best friend. I threw a pair on today and forgot how practical and comfy they are.}}

updates updates...

I will be working from the NYC office for my last two weeks at my old job. My company did ask if I would work the week-in-between-jobs, September 21st from home.. I said yes. Mainly because I feel guilty leaving them hanging and I know how necessary it is. Hkyplayer & I are hoping I will be working from Montreal for the week of September 21st, and possibly catch one of his games too! Yipee. Hkyplayer accused me of not sounding excited about the pending mini-vaca. but what can one expect. I am nervous about starting at a new job, first days are seriously terrible. I really I think you feel ignorant for the first week-3 months at a new position.

My parents are so graciously coming down the weekend of September 18th to move me out of the city and back Upstate. They are staying in a nice hotel and hopefully can find it relaxing. I plan on doing most of the work so that they can just load up and go. I do have a girl interested in my apartment, I find out this Friday if she officially takes over the lease (huge finger cross)..I also offered all of my furniture..it is mainly Ikea replaceable stuff. We will see how that all goes. It would be nice to not have to move a bunch of heavy things.

Heres some news for ya!!!

One of Hkyplayer's best friends from Montreal and prepschool is staying with me. Yes, in the lil studio. We are talking about close living folks! He is a very nice guy, I consider him a friend too..but still. I mean..he is crashing on a futon and when the futon is flat it is like 3 ft from my bed. It is hilariously awkward. I mean, I am typically in bed around 9 pm...just watching tv and relaxing post-workout....I can't really do that when I am having to be a hostess..filling wine glasses, getting his bed ready..again. this is just hysterical!! He is currently doing an internship with National Geographic and is searching desperately for an apartment.. He is hoping to finalize by the weekend. It is all fine and not a big deal..but have I said it is really awkward?!!! Oh life!!

{{See Small-Sized-Studio Apartment Below}}...

(this pic was when I first moved in-hence why the walls are so fricking bare etc.)

(ps..Hkyplayer was NOT having it when his friend asked me. But what can you do! He did not want to seem like a jealous boyfriend and really theres no reason to worry in that realm..it was kind of one of those things that you really didnt want to make up an excuse for, and from my point of view, Hkyplayer once housed 2 of my girlfriends for a couple days so I will do the same in return) We are all just one big happy family !!

This weekend one of my college bffs Stephanie will be in town. She has been in NYC once every couple weekends (thank heavens). As she is working and a bridesmaid/maid of honor in about a million weddings around NY. We will get together Saturday afternoon for some shopping most likely and a good dinner/drinks.

{{ Steph & I last visit}}

Sunday morning we are running in the Susan G. Komen 5K in Central Park. I ran in the race last year and really loved it. It is so inspirational running amongst women with "Survivor" tshirts- or "In Memory Of". I am looking forward to it. However! I have been changing my sneakers around this week and my body is not happy. My legs felt so heavy on yesterdays run, and I am yet to get my Fuel Belt in the mail (pouting), and the water bottle I was running with- holding it. (Not annoying at all)..ha.. felt like a million pounds. It was a sticky situation because I wanted to chuck it in the trash mid-run but knew I would regret not having it for the end of my run...

ok ok!! done complaining! :) Happy Wednesday...ahhh short weeks are heaven....

"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there." -Bob Marley

the hkyplayer in black. giggling at training camp.

isnt he just the cutest?!!!!

Its official!! I have big news I can finally share.
I got a new job!! It is in my hometown and was really what I had been hoping and praying for. It had been a long interview process and I had been in limbo for a couple weeks. It is so hard to be patient.
I have two weeks in the city to finish up at my current agency, pack up, and get rid of the apartment.
I am going to continue to have Faith and now it will all work out. This news is certainly proof. I had been looking for sometime now for the chance to relocate to my hometown after putting in a year and a half in NYC. The minute I saw this job posting I knew I needed it! More responsibility, less hours, and a lot more money (the cost of living is also much cheaper Upstate).

My job is in Skaneateles, NY by Skaneateles lake. It is a small but gorgeous little town.

I still have to determine where my new apartment will be and if I want to buy a new car (need to be able to handle the snowy back roads) but I am sure the answers will come to me in time.

Hkyplayer is also excited and very proud. He hated NYC. We knew it was just for my job but even his visits weren't all that great w both of us not loving it there. I will also be a lot closer to him and can take a train or drive up to his games this season.

Overall a great transition. But a transition nonetheless. Not easy.

I am typing from my parents boat currently...so more to come soon. I just could not hold in the big news any longer!!

God Bless

Exhibit A.
this is my hkyplayer's ex-girlfriend.
and you think you have self esteem issues.
no. not joking.
elisha cuthbert. yes i did not capitalize her name on purpose. :)









Exhibit B:
Saw her on the street today, on the way to lunch
She is skinner in real life.
& Apparently really in love with her significant other..
Gabrielle Anwar, Burn Notice

I stumbled across this article while on my lunch break today. It made me smile to myself so many times. I did live abroad, South of Paris. For 3 months. And these 5 Suprises were taken out of my life experience in France I swear. If ONLY I had found this article prior to being abroad...but then again.

Isnt it the Suprises that make Life worth it....

Have You Ever Dreamed About Living in Paris? Here Are Five Surprises...

Monday, 03/ 2/2009 at 12:53 PM
Everyone, at one time or another, has fantasized about packing their bags and moving to Paris. But what's it really like to live there?

Nichole Robertson from Little Brown Pen just moved to Paris with her family, and, overall, they adore it. But, in all honesty, she reveals five things she finds hilariously tricky about everyday life in France... Here are the five things Nichole finds hilariously tricky about daily life in Paris...

1. No Speak French. I don't speak a whole lot of French. I can ask where the restroom is and order a coffee, but my husband does most of the talking. When we go to the grocery store or to the bakery, I feel like his submissive wifey who nods and smiles. When I do speak, I imagine I sound like Borat... "Me like your bread. Yes. Your bread is nice."

2. No Cheddar Cheese. It's not surprising that my toddlers love cheddar cheese. What is shocking (unless I'm the last to know) is that cheddar cheese is not too popular in Paris. We searched for two days to no avail. Desperation led to a pretty shady move: We bought something orange and told them it was cheddar. Lucky for us, Mimolette tastes and looks a whole lot like the real deal!

3. No Hot Showers. I weep for hot showers. I dream about hot showers. I would travel miles for a hot shower. But our water tank is teeny, and we learned the hard way that we have about three minutes each before the hot water runs out. So everyday is a choice: Shampoo or shave? Face or feet?

4. No Bathroom Power. I have long hair, and I absolutely need to blow it dry. There's only one outlet in the bathroom, and it says razors only. So I dry my hair in the kitchen, the only place that won't fry my hairdryer. I even hung a mirror in there. Bonus: Now I can monitor the toast while I'm doing it.

5. No Anonymous Med Shopping. The scenario: You have diarrhea. United States: You go to CVS, pick up some Immodium, and disguise it with a copy of In Touch while in the checkout line. No one discusses diarrhea (although they may discuss Jessica Simpson). Paris: Medicine isn't sold in a supermarket or otherwise anonymous place, so you go to a small pharmacie. There are at least six people in this small pharmacie. All of the embarrassing medications are behind the counter. You skulk to the counter and spend ten minutes trying to explain in broken French that you have diarrhea. In public. With hand gestures.

All of the not-so-charming stuff aside, Paris is everything you'd expect it to be. The romantic cliches exist for a reason, and I've never had better bread, butter, eclairs or coffee. The people are super nice; I have yet to meet a rude French person. Our apartment is beautiful, with exposed beams, huge windows and a sweet cobblestone courtyard, and when I'm not in it, I'm surrounded by some of the most amazing architecture in the world. It's a truly magical place to be, and I enjoy living life in a place where people champion beauty in all its forms.

Visit the Author, Nichole, at her Blog- Little Brown Pen.

She is genuis. American, Gorgeous, Happily Married and has the.cutest.little.boys.

my grandfather; cigar, glasses & his keyboard.

how priceless. god bless him..

happy thursday (friday) to all those who are taking an extra long wknd this wknd. i am flying home tonight!! yippee!! i hope my flight is on time so i can hit the hot tub when i am home.

it will be so weird as the youngest bro. is now off to college. strange!!

i plan on seeing his dorm and taking him to breakfast. that is if he has time for us in his busy-

i am too cool for you now that i am a college student-schedule. :)

no news on my end. hkyplayer is back @ training camp for the weekend. xo

i am thankful to be going home and not having to worry about the wknd job anymore!
congrats to KatieD for hew new part-time job at Anthroplogie. I would looooooove to tap into her store discount on some of their fall clothes & cute apartment accessories. Miss u Kate!!